Shay focused on Sun's voice as she stared at her brother she was "seeing" across the room. While everything horrific she had endured before was vanishing, melting in to the realty it really was, Shane was the last standing hallucination before her. She still could not see anyone real in the room as her eyes remained closed. She was understanding now through Sun's telepathy that what she was seeing wasn't real. This meant that seeing her brother was not real either. A heavy tear slid out of the corner of her eye and fell down her dirty cheek. It was as if she was losing Shane all over again. She never spoke of him to anyone except for Mother and Marcus when she arrived. She had been so close to her brother that speaking about him to anyone was still painful and was a memory she didn't feel like digging up or sharing with anyone else. She told Mother and Marcus in confidence, knowing they would keep her secret. Ravenia took her in and Marcus helped her heal at the gates during her first few weeks. Marcus was kind enough to let her vent, cry hard for several days, grieve, and finally heal. After that she promised herself she would be strong thereafter. Strong for her brother and for herself. Crying was a sign of weakness and she was not weak. She was determined to be as strong as any Blessed One. When she told Ravenia and Marcus of Shane a weight was lifted off of her chest and she had no need to speak of him to anyone else again. His memory was sacred and her own. 

As Sun reassured Shaylly that she was hallucinating and explained the situation, Shay focused on his clear words, taking in what he was saying and putting everything together. The pain was still riveting through her body but she was able to focus when she heard Sun speak. At Sun's final words Shay saw Shane wave his arm softly back and forth, a goodbye for her as he slowly vanished from her sight, dissipating like her parents and the other hallucinations. Shay felt her throat choke. She was not one for tears and weeping, but she felt emotions pull at her that she had not felt in so long. Sun was all she could ask for in this moment. He was her adoptive little brother. He was not a replacement for Shane, but rather their relationship just came naturally and filled the hole in Shay's heart when she had first arrive to Paradise Land. She was always there for him, to protect him, to teach him anything she could. Despite playing the big sister role, he did so much for her that she secretly leaned on him more than he would know. His presence now made her feel secure, Sun her brother, taking care of her. 

When Sun's voice grew silent she realized the connection between them was gone. Was that moment even real? She could feel the pain riveting through her body and as she lost Sun's voice her focus fell back on the pain torturing through her veins, her bones, her skin. Her body shook. She focused on what Sun said. [i] Wake up![/i] she yelled to herself. [i] Wake up damn it, this isn't real. Sun is there for you! Get your eyes open and your mind focused![/i] Sun's close touch relaxed her pounding heart and heavy breathing slightly, a physical effect she was not aware of but helped her.

Shay opened her eyes, pupils dilated and wide. She gasp loudly, inhaling deeply. She was laying on her side,knees tucked up to her chest still. Her eyes searched the room in front of her and quickly fell upon Sun. The pain seemed to be slowing. It wasn't shaking her body as harshly. She felt like she had been drugged, her body heavy, eyes fighting to stay open. She felt like she had been stuck in a nightmare, unable to get herself free until now. "Oh Sun" she cried out, reaching her arm to pull him close to her. She was still dust ridden and damp with sweat from her ordeal, needing a nice hot shower. Trusting Sun that what she was feeling would be over soon she would worry about that later. "H-how much longer?" she asked with a short breath. She wanted to know how much more of the pain she would have to endure. She couldn't talk much as the pain was still coursing through her body. Shay could see Sun was breathing heavier than normal. His telepathy must have been hard on him and she was not sure how much effort it took for him to maintain that form of communication. She would remind herself when she was in a better state to thank him many times over.