[quote=Gowi]
Can we complain about ourselves and our terrible habits? I think I’m going to do that.I’m really sick and tired of being in this sort of role-playing purgatory where my creative passion lingers in a dead zone. I’ve never been a better writer than I am now and here I am not actively feeling the same bite I did back a few years ago (let’s say 2007 to like 2010). I mean I’ve tried all the tricks in the book to be inspired consistently and Pach full well knows my inspiration has been flaky in recent years. But every single time it disappears it is for this short ass time. I mean I think 2013 was the most active I’ve been in years for role-playing prose.

I’m also sick and tired of me subconsciously sabotaging and destroying my own role-plays by either activity, arguing, or what-have-you. I love GMing, and as much as I prefer to be a player sometimes it’s not viable. Why can’t I keep anything afloat after I finished the one role-play (saga) I finished a few years ago? It’s like I finally completed a role-play without excessive time-skips and what happens after? Everything fails. Speaking of, I have an apologetic PM to send to two people.
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Heyas Mike! 

I think it's commendable that you've taken a self examination of yourself and where you think you've gone wrong as a player and can improve. I think it's something we could all do at some point as a way to learn from our mistakes and help improve ourselves. Just so long as we don't get too self depricating about it ;)

My advice to you: Give yourself goals. One of your primary problems was staying regularly inspired and completing posts on time. The simplest way to solve that is by regularly giving yourself goals to aspire for and then make sure you achieve them. You're certainly right that you're a good writer and GM, but you tend to flake a lot. The best way of combatting this is by setting yourself a consistent date/time to write a post and then doing it. Don't put it off, just write. Even if the post isn't exactly stellar and great writing, just post it. It's incredibly hard at first but once you get into the swing and rythym of it and find your mojo, it becomes a lot, lot easier.

 I think the best thing you can do is to slowly ease yourself back into this: Start off by creating a rp that's relatively simple and easygoing, not one with a lot of lore and mechanics involved, at least not yet, but something small and simple to start with. It's better to ease yourself back in first then it is to jump at the deep end and aspire for too much. Establish a posting frequency for it that is relatively frequent, be it once every two or three days, and then strive to always achieve it, no matter what. If the rp's relatively simple, then writing posts should be a lot simpler and easier to respond to as well. And not just for you, but any applying players as well. The aim of this is to help keep you consistently posting and becoming involved with your rp, and with the (hopeful) consistent posting from your players as well, it should hopefully help to motivate you and maintain the momentum of the rp as well. Later on it can always begin to grow and flourish and become more wonderfully detailed from there. Honestly, I want you to discover that spark of fun that comes with rping be rekindled inside yourself again, and I think easing back into it with a simple rp and set personal goals can really help with that, I think. 

I'm on FB if you wanna/need a chat.