Cooper sprawled on his side once knocked over, showing his belly, wagging his tail so fast, Kalinda expected him to take off like a helicopter at any moment. He didn't seem to be hurt, so Kalinda didn't worry. She steeled herself, and looked up, but ended up closing her eyes. [i]thats the problem[/i] she thought [i]i want to be with you. Every single moment of the day. It hurts. Both because I know I hurt you, and because of that, I feel that I have no right to be with you[/i] and yet she couldn't say the words, couldn't bring herself to do it. Because it would just hurt them both.

As he came over and caressed her check, she let her eyes open, her eyes swimming with tears, unshed. She swallowed, painfully. "It hurts." Her voice was soft, broken, riddled with emotion, "wanting to be with you, but being to guilty, to ashamed, to..." She swallowed again "in knowing what I did..." She sighed heavily, and looked away