Without making this thread depressing, confusing, or stupid, I'm just going to explain that I was never very good at social interaction my entire life, I never got it. And the past few years have made me into a pessimistic, numb, and bitter person with maybe a few good moments.

I know I have explained this before, but I do want to get to know people better, not just in my town but also on here (where I have spent so much time). This is why I am always hoping the AceXToellnerXPrimez meetup thing happens because it would be ballin.

Now I think I had three people here who I actually considered my friends;
Dex, but you know what happened there.
Bela, but we grew apart (I also started being a dick).
Sole, but I ignored him allot because I'm a horrible person.

Squee would always be nice to me but I never felt like I was being sincere to her even though I wish I was.

Now, I have the obligatory list of people I wish I had the capacity to know well or a chance to become friends with.

God that was fucking depressing.

right, the list:

-Borvo
-Nargle (hated you at first for like no reason, but your gowing on me.
-Dervish
-Awson (I agree with like 90% of what you post here.)
-idle
-Turt
-Bea (but mostly due to my man-crush on mike).
-Mike
-Foxes (if he is still around).
-Rilla
-Ace and Primez (should be a given at this point).
-Jorick 
-Sora (you fucking hippie).
-Mamoth (mostly just to piss him off by putting him on this list).
-Jster.
-Seravee (out oldtower talks were really nice).
-Squee, Bela, and Sole are also givens.
-Sherlock

There are people I missed who will log in for the first time in weeks against all odds purely to bitch at me for not adding them to this list.
There are also people I had nice PMs with who I would like to talk to again, but names evade me sometimes.
A part of me also wishes this list was smaller (i.e.: more meaningful or some kind of bullshit), but whatever.

Go fuck yourselves. I'm going to shoot a dog or something to stop feeling emotions.