Sad to hear that, Maki. But its understandable.

Take your time with things. The guild is finally on a long-awaited road to improvement, so if you feel you need to take a break, then do so and come back in a week or whatever you need. It'll still be there, and by the time you get back, it'll be improved.

If you need any help wilson, don't hesitate to drop by the IRC. We're more around there now, and you can usually find a few others in there too (echo, fallen, Sep, Teddy...). We too have been stuck for a muse ourselves.

Also, if your character feels broken, don't hesitate to discard it and start over. We've been planning for a while to discard Thora ourselves... She simply didn't work as originally hoped.