[quote=@Destinyfailhorror17]
.... you be surprised how monotone my voice is right now and really I am not excited I am just all...go for it and shit, I feel sick (Since I apparently have indigestion) to the point were my feelings are becoming so mono to the point were I may even sound like a I care. because i seriously need a slap at the face right now because I feel shit and it not because of the sickness. 
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I can't give you a slap in the face through your screen.

Stupid jokes aside, I am also stating something that is somewhat true. I lack the ability to give a proper "wake-up call" through the Internet because we all cannot hear the tones of our voices. Also, go see a family member or a doctor if you're not feeling anything, because that is fucking abnormal and needs treatment ASAP. I had a friend who felt that same emotion and took his own life because he kept on staying away from the topic. Find a way to soothe your mind- your hobbies, or even the things you hated and disregarded before-, and that's already a huge step in regaining confidence.

Also, "excited" is not necessarily a good emotion. It technically means a slightly riled up state of emotions, and that's what you're feeling for your inconfidence right now. Just put yourself away from the screen for once, tell us that you need a short break, and we'll acknowledge that you're not in the mood to participate in the roleplay.

Continue this conversation through a PM or something if you have more to say. But for now, let's stop posting on this matter in this roleplay.