She almost scoffed. "Yeah, to do his wife's hair and hear about how he's 'so successful'." She looked at Jareth and sighed. "I don't think I'll ever get that kind of a man to be honest. I mean, I'm only someone to be used; if that whole debacle with Hunter were anything to go by." She looked down at her hands and bit her bottom lip. "And I'm scared. I'm terrified of meeting guys. And Grant knows that. He… he made me love him so badly that I can't look at a guy without thinking 'will he be embarrassed of me too?'" 

She leaned her head onto Lila's shoulder and looked at the pills on her bedside table, void of emotion. She felt numb now, as she relished the feeling. Being numb meant she could feel no sadness. She couldn't feel her heart ripping to shreds, nor her mind trying to pick up the pieces. She looked back at Jareth and said "I just let whatever it is happen. I let Hunter kiss me, I let Grant walk all over me again, I even let Delilah give you my guitar. When do I get something? When everyone is mad at me and telling me I'm horrible?" She hugged Lila to show she didn't mean to make her feel guilty, but it was the truth.