Happy returns I guess, sorry I disappeared for so long. RL just got busy and I wasn't able to do much online, but I've also been steadily losing the will to go onto my computer at all. Social Media, and internet in general (A lot less here than other places), have kinda become too much for me. I'm not getting bullied or anything, but I just sorta feel... invisible and ignored. and really lonely.

Sure I can interact with people online, but it isn't the same as talking face to face with someone. Everything I say or do, everything I see or experience goes through a mental filter I have. I'm always trying to be so careful of what I say, so skeptical of what I see. I've lost trust in myself and others both in RL and Online, It's been driving me crazy that I couldn't vent to anyone. 

I'm mostly in my right mind at the moment. I've been offline for about three weeks by my count, maybe longer.

I feel horrible disappearing like that. I'm back now though. hopefully for good.

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I figured here would be the best place to put this, so that everyone knows, and so I don't dissapear again. I'm posting this here as a promise to everyone and myself that I'm not gonna run and hide from problems anymore, that I'm not going to abandon something I love because everything else goes south. 

In my crazy life, this site is the rock in the middle of the river, a sanctuary where I can have fun and relax. Which I am very thankful for.

once again, I'm so sorry for disappearing for so long. It might take me a bit to catch up on everything.