Okay, so I have quite a bit to say here. I think. I don't know, it's 3 AM in the morning. AAAAA.

Anyway, I think I'll start here: I've been on the guild for, well, a damn long time now. Since 2009 and, I haven't been all too loyal in the past year, but that could possibly be attributed to all my friends leaving because life demanded their attention. Regardless, I've gone through a few name changes, uh, there's Haemonculus, Sixsmith, and now HalfofLancelot (because Left Half of Lancelot doesn't fit QQ) and I think Bowl of Petunias, but don't quote me on that. Regardless, over the years I've made some [i]damn[/i] awesome friends that I know I've spent more time and would give up more time than any of my real life friends. I mean, these guys know more about the [i]me[/i] that I don't ever show in public, even the icky bits. Well, not those icky bits, ha... ha... I hope not, Jesus.

First on my list has to be [@Undine]: I met you on Blue Bloods a long, long time ago, and... wow... I just... you are probably my best friend here. At first, I felt so bad cause you were this little innocent Japanese girl who I was corrupting to my dark ways. Dark ways as in so much gay. So much gay men. Oh god. *Does 10 hail mary's* Regardless, you've been there for me through thick and thin and you've been pretty much a rock for any time I have any bad days, or any days in which I don't like my writing or think my characters aren't adequate enough. Here's this amazing writer telling me that [i]I[/i] inspire [i]her[/i]. I can't take compliments and just knowing that I do that for someone makes me want to cry. I have tears in my eyes right now, fuck. Lol.

Honestly, I don't know where I'd be in my writing if I didn't have someone like Miso there every step of the way, even when we both left and didn't remain in contact for awhile. I haven't RP'd in months before I came back to the guild and her post here, in this appreciation thread, as I was perusing one day because why the hell not, brought me to tears. And how could you deny that, you know? So, I didn't. I came back, stalked the hell out of her RPs and joined one of 'em and I don't regret a second of it. Not only have I rekindle the best friendship I've ever had, but I made new ones that I wouldn't trade for the world.

So, just know, Miso, that you've made at least one friend for life and I will not hesitate to ever be there for you whenever you need a helping hand. Plus, your writing, from the day I met you to now has gone from leaps and bounds. I still get amazed. Like. Wow. Who is this person and where did they take Miso Soup?! From your characters, to your ability to GM, to your writing in general and I am very proud to be able to read your stuff every day. Talking about GMing, this girl has kept me from flaking, from wimping out, from derailing RPs. 5'2" and she's intimidating as hell when she wants to be. So, I just wanted to so thank you, thank you so much for everything. There's nothing I can say that can express my gratitude enough. No words, honestly. I can't think of anything more.

You're my best friend. Don't ever change. And if you do, I hope it's always for the better. And don't ever stop writing Miso. I expect us to be RPing til we're 70. XD

Next, I think I'll touch base with [@Ex]: Dude, you're the... I can't explain what you are, tbh. You're nice without seeming too lenient and I've never seen you make any point without logic to back you up. And I will admit that, when I first met you and starting roleplaying with you, I kind of idolized you. That's awful. I don't think you'd like that at all. Regardless, it happened 'cause I was and probably will always be so self-conscious of my own writing. You definitely inspired me to be a much, much better writer and I owe a lot of what I can do now with my words, characters, plots, and ideas to you.

Not only that, but you're also an [i]amazing[/i] friend and one I don't ever, ever wanna lose. Which is awesome that Skype is a thing. Regardless, Purgatory Heights is still my baby and, despite the lackluster writing skills, it's the thing I am most proud of. It's probably the best time I've had on the Guild up till now and I can't really say that it was a part of the guild, since it was entirely in collabs. And I owe that, as well, to you and a select few others (though I only know Fallout is here, not Lia or Dread. D; ). Regardless, I want to thank you for being a great, great friend and an amazing person to RP with and, I know it sounds weird, but I think I'll always look up to you. You're a role model whether you like it or not.

That's all. Bye guys.

No, I'm kidding, holy butts and nuggets. I want to get on with this next person, who is such a fabulous individual. [@McHaggis]: I've only really known you for two months, but I feel like we're already best friends. I mean, I talk to you and Miso and Liriia every single day and I don't ever want that to stop. Holy crap. I've had the time of my life. PH was my highlight from the old guild and what we all have now is the highlight of the new guild, and probably of my life. I know that sounds weird to say. Cause like, who there Hae, what about the rest of your probably 50+ years? Honestly, I hope this lasts that long. Well, at least pretty damn long. I think I've made life time friends here, and I want to believe that with every fiber of my being.

Anyway, on to the real bits. I've roleplayed with you for the first time... in, I wanna say that Walking Dead RP, but I just... I think there was one before that. I feeeeeel like there was one before that. Regardless, I thought you were a dude. A scottish dude, so I got that right. *cough* It's probably cause you play a buncha dudes and for some reason I acquit Aidan Turner to you all the time. I watched the Hobbit and all I could think about was 'Bilbo and Thorin are banging?' and 'that's mchaggis. that's mchaggis. why is that mchaggis wtf.' And I never really got to ever truly talk to you or anything. That's probably because you were in Scotland. But, man, I would have totally initiated conversation if I knew where it was gonna take me. I've never enjoyed myself or laughed about anything more than with you (and by extension Miso and Liriia).

Not only that, but you're one of the best writers I know here and someone who could definitely hold their own in any kind of writing environment. Your characters are all so multi-faceted and your plot lines are so fucking compelling and I'm so, so, so excited whenever I'm going to be RPing with you. Not only that but the way you write is fantastic and only slightly intimidating. >_> <_< I admit, I was very nervous whenever we first started our first ever collab (oh the sin) because you had this idea of who I was from back before I left (to do weird fanfic things) and that scared the shit outta me. Cause then that meant I had to [i]impress you[/i] of all people and I was really like, "Oh god, what if I don't live up to her standards. She's going to dislike me and AAAAAAAAAA" but then suddenly we're all writing so much and have... goddamn 20+ pages in each of our weird crack collabs that we end up never using (more like can't use) and I'm thinking, "Why did I ever worry in the first place? These guys are amazing." And we all compliment and inspire us to be better writers and I don't think we could ask for a better friendship.

God, don't get me started on all the movies. I've never enjoyed movie watching as much as I have with you all. Jesus.

So, there's that. Cause I'm going to gush some more and if I don't leave a sizeable chunk for Liriia, she's going to kick my ass. But, regardless of the impending ass kicking I'm gonna get, thank you. Thank you so much for ever thinking I was worthy enough to be considered a friend, much less good friends. I couldn't ask for a better friend who's willing to get [i]fucking pissed[/i] for me, who's willing to throw down because I was slighted. I don't think I've ever had a group of people get so 'Righteous Fury' for me. Like, this is the only instance I can recall where people have stood to my defense and I couldn't be any, any more grateful to have friends like these. God. You're all going to make me cry again.

SO, NOW TO MOVE ON TO [s]THE DIRTY SIDE HOE[/s] [@Liriia]: WHERE THE HELL DO I START? FIRST OF ALL I'M WRITING IN ALL CAPS FOR THIS ONE BECAUSE YOU DEMAND THAT. SECOND, YOU ARE CUTE AS ALL FUCKING HELL. YOU'RE LITERALLY KATE MICUCCI. YOU CHANNEL HER ESSENCE. YOU ARE [I]HER[/I] PATRONUS.

Okay, gonna stop the caps before it gets annoying. You are one hell of an individual and one hell of writer. And, oh my god, I am so, so, so, so, so glad to have met you. Not only are you the most interesting person I've met in [i]my life[/i] but you're an [i]amazing friend.[/i] Like, in our little group you are the rock that keeps us grounded. You're so chill it hurts and then you're such a character sadist that it [i]hurts[/i]. A relationship built on insulting each other? Fuck yeah. No, but really, our banter is the best and then our... I don't know what to call it, so I'm just gonna say sinful talk is even better. But, girl, not only are you an amazing writer, but you're an amazing artist AND I WANT YOU TO HAVE EVERYTHING YOU WANT OUT OF YOUR COLLEGE EXPERIENCE. It's gonna be so fun hearing about it all. AAAAAA.

That aside, I'm very glad to have become very, very good friends with you. Best friends even. I can say that we're best friends because you're among the people that I talk with every single day in the past two months. Amazing. I'm sure I've only done that twice and usually I need days by myself but when I'm with you all, I don't feel like I need to spend energy being someone entertaining or what have you. I don't feel like I'm wasting energy or time when I talk with you guys. I feel refreshed, revitalized, and so, so, so, so, so happy. And I owe that all to you guys. And not only that but you all inspire me. You make me commit when otherwise I wouldn't and I enjoy things I otherwise wouldn't.

Also, you introduced me to the most amazing game ever *Stares pointedly at my avie/sig combo* and I just. WOW. THANK YOU FOR THAT BY ITSELF.

But, also, thank you for being a wonderful friend. You're always so high on life and it's contagious as fucking hell and I love it. And I love you guys. And I'm gonna cry. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.

So, I'm definitely going to get some kind of therapy and hopefully medication because I do suffer from anxiety and clinical depression. I have months where I feel like I'm going no where, where I don't want to talk to anyone. Where I can't even write. And in the time I've spent with you guys, I've not been as anxious as I usual am, and I've not once had a downward spiral. And I can't be happier. Like, I know I still have financial issues concerning college that I'm working through and other rl situations, but I can't be happier than where I currently am. I have to thank you guys for that. So, thank you. Thank you so much for being such amazing friends. I can't express how much you've given me and I hope to God that I've given as much as you guys have.

So please, keep writing, keep being the great people you are, keep salting with me, and keep just doing this amazing job of just being decent people. And of being amazing friends. Thank you, thank you so, so much.