It was a comfort to hear that Aimee, someone natural to the wilds, was anxious to return to Zeltiva. It made her feel like she wasn't so alone out there, that there was something else to look forward to ahead.

Elann listened intently as her sister cautiously laid out her question and her clarification of it. Aimee had read her memoirs and knew of her desires and love for Noah, as well as how they met, but upon her giving her clarification, she realized the hidden inquiry as to what she wanted to know.

Shifting more and more slumped as she went on, Elann almost seemed to crumple as she went on. As she finished it was clear that the toughened outside of Elann had been punctured and deflated and she was showing her inner sadness. 

"I know...I know he's stressed. I think it's all my fault. I mean...ever since the beginning I've been pressuring him to be something he wasn't. I had never met a kelvic before, so I just thought he was a...well...a strange man." She smiled at that slightly, "But in him, I saw a sweetness, an innocence, and he wasn't strange in a so bad of a way, so I decided to get to know him more. I had no-one when I came to Syliras, but he seemed to want to spend time with me, and to be honest, just having someone there to listen to me made me feel better after the horrible stuff that had happened to me."

"I eventually grew irritated with his behavior, still thinking he was a human. I actually yelled at him a little the first outing we went on because he would only ever speak to me in one word answers...I made him cry." It was clear she felt bad about it, but she continued on. "That was when I found out in small part what it means to be kelvic and it was why he didn't understand some things that to me were normal. He confessed to me he wanted to be more human-like, but didn't know how...so we mentally really just settled into this relationship with him where we seemed to be human together, but to tell the truth, I think I just settled into that mentality and have been fooled by it since."

"We had bickered in the past as he tried to understand me, but nothing we had fought about was as serious as since the marriage. I think the reason this has been so bad is because in my mind, I had this image of him as this Kelvic trying to be human, an image where he was trying. When you both showed up, he seemed more like a Kelvic trying to forget the human and that he hated the ruse of it. It seemed to me like he had given up trying altogether. That was my perspective anyway. I think he feels like I think I don't appreciate or notice how much he has changed to conform to me. I do, but it wasn't that that bothered me. It was his words in our fighting. He would leave when the topic wasn't something he wanted to hear and he seemed to be just more angry, snippy; all likely my fault by me trying to change him still."

"I've been trying to understand him, but I just had this image in my mind of how he loved me and that image I've been finding out is far different than I thought. I don't doubt his love for me. I know he loves me like no other, but I love through desire and attraction, among other things. And I felt like I didn't know him anymore when I found he married me but wasn't attracted to me nor desired me. It was like he was a puppet and I had been tugging and dragging him along to be this person he wasn't, even into marriage. To me, nothing is more important than marriage, but to him, I think he never cared for it. Most of the changes I've seen were because I wanted him to change...and I think it has been so volatile lately because I've pushed him to a peak where he can't take it anymore." She sighed, feeling destroyed inside. "It's been very hard for me to come into the mindset I need to be in, but I am trying."

She shed a single tear then, but didn't cry much. She was trying with all her ability to understand him, but was just so horrible at it.