[center][h3]"Yesterday Was Just A Little Too Much For Me"[/h3]
[sup]Written May 9th, 2016.[/sup]


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Yesterday was a little too much for me,
I could hardly get through the day, honestly.
As difficult as it has been the last 9 years,
was worse yesterday trying to hold back the tears.

It's the day after Mother's Day, yet I feel the same
you know, for many years I took all of the blame.
I used to think that I was a terrible kid, probably the worst
come to find out it was yourself causing you all the hurt.

Mom, if only there was a way I could speak with you now,
if you could see the woman I've become, you'd probably say, "Wow!"
I'll have to admit, I struggle from time to time,
if I told you I was okay, you best believe I'd be lyin'.

I had the day off from work, luckily for me,
I wouldn't have gotten through it, truthfully.
It's hard enough getting through just a normal afternoon
didn't need the stress of being surrounded by those goons.

I spent a few hours down with Grandma yesterday,
she broke down and cried to me, missing you and J.
Seeing her cry caused me to shed a few tears, too
I hope you know just how terribly we miss you.

Yesterday was just a little too much for me,
hoping, wherever you are, you can look at me and see
that it hasn't gotten any easier in these 9 long years
I still struggle to contain the flow of my tears.
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