[quote=@Mistress Dizzy]
I've just been numb for weeks. Nothing matters. 
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I've been staring at this post trying to decide what to say. It would be very easy for me to say that things do matter, that there's something out there for you. And while I do believe that with everything that I am I know that it isn't that simple. This seems to be something that has been going on for some time whether you've confronted it or not. In circumstances like this I always feel like I'm limited in the ways I can help, separated by distance. There's no way for me to give you a hug or be right there for you. 

I don't have much to offer other than my time and prayer. If you need someone to talk to then don't hesitate to let me know. whether it be here, in a PM or some other method, we can find a way to make it happen. I can't say I have all the answers but I can listen if nothing else.