Sawaru was listening to what the others were saying, but just barely. Her head was spinning. She was nauseous and dizzy and felt like her heart was going to leap out of her chest.
She knew this day was coming. She was no fool. But it had all happened so fast. Despite the long time they had spent planning, it always seemed like this day would never actually arrive; that it would always just be a plan and never an actuality that they would all leave their home behind to venture out into the world. And the thought of doing so terrified her.
She could not even imagine what the others might be feeling. She had been out there before and yet she was so scared that she was feeling physically unwell. Then again, maybe that was exactly [i]why[/i] she was feeling sick; because she actually knew what the world was like out there.

When the conversation turned to what had and would need to be packed, Sawaru turned to Masakazu after he had spoken.
“I was actually hoping to get some help with my packing. I don't really do seals, but it's the only way I can think of to bring my flowers with me. Could you seal them for me? They're very important to me,” she asked softly, trying her best not get let her own discomfort show in neither her face, nor her voice, but failing to completely conceal it.

She realized she should have said something earlier, since the boy might not even have the stuff needed for sealing plants. Could plants even be sealed? Would they survive, if they were sealed? Would she still need to water them?
She should have said something about taking out the guard, too. She knew she could, quite easily, make sure he would not stop them from leaving, but not be hurt either. She had plenty of toxins and poisons that would do the trick. After all, plants were her life.

“And, uh”, she said awkwardly, which was a bit too out of character for her to be comfortable with it; she was never awkward, “I'll take out the guard, if you don't mind,” she added with a glance in Kai's direction for his approval.