[center]“I was a child, one how'd never turned anyone before and I wasn't--dammit stop moving! I didn't mean to leave you but I was being chased and I panicked--shit! I know I can't fix this but…” His words failed him as he shifted his grip and refused to let her go. He knew he was playing at something that could destroy everything, that the line he treaded on was thin. He just wanted to get her to calm and listen. He'd admitted he'd been afraid and until that moment he'd forgotten what it felt like to be truly afraid. He'd locked a certain part away after that incident, Isabela easily soothing his fears and keeping an eye out for his attackers. 

He'd secluded himself from that night and now he was paying for it. The girl in his arms was bitter and wanted nothing more than to lash out at him, he knew he couldn't and that would end badly. A fledgling and their sire needed one another in more ones than one, he was learning that know. He grit his teeth and with instinct guiding him, he leaned down and allowed his mouth to hover over the mark he knew she bore. 

Insanity was a scary thing. He'd been an almost empty being until the night he found Ryanair, he'd looked like a broken child then. Clara had been no different when he'd found her, they'd both fallen into their feelings. He could remember warm fingers and kisses that seemed to silently convey answers, he'd allowed himself to give in and let go. Now he had two different fledgling’s and his mind was whirling in endless circles. “I fucked up and I know that you want nothing to do with me, but I can't...no matter how long I live I know I won't be able to earn your trust. I just...”His words failed but his stance doesn't, his lips brushing against warm skin. His mind wandered to an article he'd read awhile back, of a sickness that was claiming the minds of several different supernatural species. 

A soft hiss escaped his lips as he pulled gently on the bond between them. He wouldn't let her go until she settled, his eyes lingering on a familiar necklace cord he could just see. He suddenly felt so damn tired.[/center]

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