[@Beelz129]

Do you want some real advice? Stop feeling sorry for yourself and buck the fuck up. 

I've got an AA, duel-BA, and a JD. A fiancee, two kids and another on the way. I come from meager means. So it is do-able. You can survive community college. Especially, if you are not working in the mean time. All you need to do is build yoursel a scedule. You know what you have to do - stop crying about it and do it. Otherwise you need to drop out of college because all you are doing is wasting money. 

As for life at this point. Go find an actual job. Most likely a factory of sorts or something you can actually make a liveable wage on, maintain health benefits and possible start saving for retirement. 

Is it easy, hell no. But thousands of people do it every day. Millions of people have done it before you. We survive. We may be grumpy and miserable but we survive. And you will too. Biggest thing is you just have to stop whining about it and do it.