[@Oliver] Sounds like a perfectly respectable way to go about things. Take time, if/when you feel you are ready, drop me a message here and we can pick up. Try giving my tutorial on RP Ettiquette a look and remember, when online sometimes we can't control what we think but we can control if we hit "post reply" - try setting a timer somewhere for you to use to review your posts before hitting enter. Will give yourself a chance to check if it is really something you want to send through.