There was a time in everyone's life where they begun to question everything that they had done with their lives, judging themselves mercilessly until they were uncertain that they even knew who they were anymore. It seems impossible for someone to know an individual more than that person knew themselves, but Sebastien didn't doubt that logic for a moment because he was living proof of that theory. At times he didn't feel he even lived in his own head. This line of thinking had coined the term "midlife crisis" with a borderline "identity crisis," but as a man of only twenty-one years-old, he couldn't say for certain that was what you could call it.  There wasn't a proper term for the situation he found himself to be in unless it was mere insanity. For someone who could learn anything and everything by simply catching a glimpse of it, this was one question that he simply couldn't find the answers to.

He rubbed the stubble on his jowl in frustration as he walked down the street, looking at the surroundings without actually looking. The logic didn't really make much sense, but nothing in his life seemed to nowadays. Looking at everything as if it was in a fog was the only way to keep the thoughts from overloading Sebastien's mind, but this method only worked for so long; once the fog lifted just for a second, it acted like an overstretched rubber band and the surroundings smacked him in the face from the backlash. 

"I'm not getting anything on my end, Parker. Perhaps we should just call it a night?" Sebastien said as he pulled at his collar to loosen it. God, the slightest pressure anywhere near the head made it feel as if it was going to implode; the migraines were the worse part of this whole ordeal.

This was their first official mission in the field after a long year of training and experimentation and they didn't have any time off before being thrown into the bowels of the city, looking for the enemy to destroy or waiting for them to find them first. This was the part of Sebastien's life that had questioned his entire existence, committing the biggest mistake of his life that happened the day he had agreed to join the External Affairs. Of course the choice had been completely his own choice, but there was no way he could allow his best friend to join such a dangerous mission without being there for Parker.