i'm from hawaii which is like half america? lol. technically america. and yeah i know the education system in general is shit, but like. i'm at a community college and i need a certain gpa to transfer to the state college. a gpa that i don't currently have because i've been stuck in this cycle of not getting off my ass for years which makes me feel like shit. i think i might have undiagnosed ADD which would explain a bunch of shit? like i read accounts of people who got diagnosed with it later in life and it reads a lot like my own experience. but also like, i know there's a lot of pitfalls and bullshit with trying to self-diagnose when you're not a medical professional and you're just reading shit you see online. blaahhhhhhhhh.

sorry i don't mean to just dump all this here. i am just rolling around in my own issues.