[quote=@Master Crim]
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Yeah, I guess the worst part for me is thinking that I just didn't want to come on too stong, and I am an introvert, which didn't send much of a message to her. Now I have this feeling of loss and disconnect from such a long time of spending time together, and chatting a lot. It is hard now for me to pick up the pieces and move on. I guess I should also mention this is the second time something like this has happened. The first time was in high school when my crush, we were closer still, had to move away. Life just hates me.

I was able to pick up the pieces last time, but now it is harder to even think about moving on with love.
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You will manage. You're strong. It may hurt for a while. Maybe when(not if) she breaks up with this guy, you can swoop in like 'I have been waiting'. <3
But in my opinion, you don't need her.