Niklaus bit his lip,  averting his eyes anywhere but Adam. He knew Adam put up with a lot regarding their relationship. Helena was the only one he had told and Caspen caught them kissing on the back stairwell. That was all who knew and Nik knew it wasn't fair to Adam. "I wish my father saw it that way, Adam but he doesn't and he probably won't ever. I stay up most of the time thinking about how this relationship isn't fair to you," he sighed.  "I always think to myself that I love you so much that I want you to find someone you could truly be happy with but then I realize that I'm a selfish coward that could never do that."[@1Hawkeyes]