I'm not the OP here, but reading some of the advice has already helped me a lot. I have a lot of the same feelings as you do [@Rockerman403], so don't think you're alone there.

I've tried a lot of what the people here are saying and what has helped me the most in the past were 1x1 role-plays where my partner and I were able to freely write and grow alongside one another. Even if most of those rps failed, failing is something I'd rather do than not trying.

The second is reading. Reading a lot. I like to read in my spare time, reading anything helps, books, fan fiction, whatever I can get my hands on. It helps my mind flow and helps give me ideas into what I have to color my writings with.