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"I'm not suggesting you don't need practice or skill, but there's no reason that you need to practice alone. I could help you practice, somehow. I could tell you what went wrong in a bad attempt, or I could just be there and watch..." she trailed off. She had found it a lot easier to talk to Shawn when she turned off and said the first thing that came to her head, but now she was looking back on the conversation, thinking of how she could have said everything much better. But she knew that if she switched her brain back on, she'd start overthinking sentences and get quiet again. Is this how ordinary people have conversations? Constantly thinking afterwards of things they could have said better? How was everyone so talkative with this kind of mental torture as a result?

Deep breaths, Heidi. Deep breaths. Count to three thousand....okay, counted to three thousand. Feel calmer. Now, carry on talking.

"Trust me, there is always more than one way of understanding something. My current understanding is that you're worrying so much about trying to get it perfect on the current attempt and you're some kind of failure if you don't get it this time, that this thought takes up your whole mind and stresses you out, so that you cannot give your full attention to what you're doing.  If this assumption is correct, then try it as if this is just a practice but you want to do it as well as you can, but it's no big deal if you don't as long as you pay attention and learn where you're going wrong. But this assumption might be too heavily based on my own experiences and your problem's something else..." She peters off again.