No I haven't seen that yet, is it good? I'm curious, I think I'll check it out!

I know right? xD What would it be like to grow up in that lifestyle and then discover that there's this whole other world out there?? I mean, introducing yourself to the internet would take a good chunk of time just by itself! xD I guess it would be like The Village xD You know, minus the threat of terrifying monsters. You've seen that right?

Yeah I wonder that too. What if they're like, well shit we screwed up xD haha, jk I don't think they think that. They seem proud of me. I have a job and my own place, what more do they want from me?? Oh right, a husband. Oops. Well, I think grandkids is what they really want, but it's still a little too early for me to think about x) I like my parents honestly, we get along pretty well for the most part. My mom was irritated with me earlier today though because I forgot to request off the 31st from work for my brother's graduation. So I have to switch shifts with someone for that day before she disowns me. Other than that, we're fine xD

Oh Ribbon Dancing xD That makes sense. Dude, [i]I[/i] want to try that! But, isn't it really dangerous?? How do they practice without falling and dying? Oh I guess they practice low to the ground first. I think I'll just get a hammock instead xDD But really, that would be so cool if you learned how to do that! Oh yeah, we have our pre-game rituals too. We also do a huddle and this might sound weird but one girl says a prayer and then we say our go (our team name)! Really fast, like it's all in one breath. Of course we also have pre game warm up drills. And we stretch together and unlike stretching before practice, this is almost meditative. I never thought about doing a ritual before a dance performance but it makes perfect sense! 

Oh, I bet that routine was awesome! I love the Great Gatsby, the book. I've never seen the movie. The book is so good though. At the time when I first read it in high school, I could really relate to Gatsby's obsessive love for Daisy and the whole green light thing. I love that time period in American history too, it just seems like Prohibition made everything exciting. F. Scott Fitzgerald is one of my favorite authors. Youth, beauty, unrequited love, new money vs old money - I could read his stuff all day. 

Hahahaha! xDD Ahh, that made me laugh out loud when I read that. I did it, so it's done x) Now you can see my super generic, hipsterish, feel good tumblr, don't judge me xP You have to love me forever now, so you know. Your words not mine. Do you know any of the songs on my tumblr? Haha, I have seen some of the super personal posts and I'm thinking...I belong here ahaha xD It honestly does take me some time to really really open up to people, so I don't know if I'll be all "here's personal feelings" right away on there heh x) Also, I foresee hours upon hours spent on there...I blame you!!! I will come to you in the next few days and be like it's your fault I'm addicteddddd xD Oh man. At least I have no school right now, phew.

Yeah I remember we did talk about that! I can't say I've been falling down drunk, just really pleasantly buzzed x) And I'm a social drinker, so I'm not throwing back beers at dinner, because first of all, that would get expensive. I'm way more into drinking at someone's apartment or my own than going out to bars, I really never do that. About the ID guy, I didn't actually see it happen but I was told that the person he didn't card wasn't even underage, he was like 25ish or something. He lost his job because the guy looked under 40 and he didn't card him. That's the law D: And you have to card them for cigarettes if they look under 30. What, who me? :D [i]Flirtatious?[/i] ;D Not at all, darling, why would you say that? Haha! xD Ok ok, I admit I might be a little. Come on, I'm super bored at the register and it's too easy to be all, "Miss? Can I see your ID?" and get called sweet heh heh x) What can I say, boosts my ego ;)

Yeah I think it is natural and something that sort of dissipates as you get older. Trust me, I feel waaay more confident than when I was 15-16ish, and that's how it's supposed to be. I mean I still feel anxious about what people think sometimes but I think that will go away more and more with time too. Also people who look confident feel anxiety too, so it's not like anyone is alone in it. Like you said, everyone feels it. You were the center of all the jokes? In just a teasing way I hope? D< Jeez, what's their problem? That would royally piss me off. You know, if it makes you feel better, when I moved to my new middle school and started 6th grade, I was so upset about leaving my friends and felt so shy the first few days that I barely talked to anyone and a few people started calling me "mute." No one would ever call me that now, but it still stings to think about it. Kids are fucking mean. Haven't you ever read Lord of the Flies haha xD 

Lol [i]un[/i]nerd alert. You can't take back the nerd! It's stays with you!

It's ok, it'ok. Listen.. I don't how to say this without sounding totally pretentious. I don't pretend to completely understand your situation, but the fact that she sent you "I wish we could see if we could be something" is sort of.. I mean, did she send that by itself? And then said it was just song lyrics? She knows you like her, and she probably knew before this. I say that because I think I've been in a similar situation to you. She might be stringing you along a bit, which isn't very nice of her to do. In fact, it's a little cruel... am I completely off here? Like I said, I obviously don't know your guys' relationship as it is now. She must know. Or maybe I'm totally misjudging. Why'd she break up with her boyfriend, do you know?