Devika curled a bit more. "I absorbed some of... her. I felt confident, like I was the best person, maybe the only person that mattered in the world. I felt powerful, like no one could stop me. I was... I was everything, and then..." She made a tiny hiccupping noise. "And then it was ripped away from me." Her gaze peeked out, looking somehow haunted. "It was like I spent years in the dark, and then someone turned on a flashlight. It was beautiful, and painful, and now that it's gone, I miss it."