"I tried killing myself," James spoke up. This was not a proud moment for him, but the truth. He was not much of a romantic, unless it came to his sister... The truth over beauty, he was a Biology major, after all, "According to my calculations, I--I..." He paused, hesitating, imaging his sister's world with him dead. It didn't matter, he had been replaced by some--, "I should have died, but... miraculously I did not. The doctors think it was a miracle. I... I happen to think it was a curse." He scoffed, realizing he had said too much already. [i]No,[/i] he said to himself, [i]any information about this situation was vital.[/i] 

He looked away, annoyed with himself. Obviously, he was the weakest link. He coward a bit, the voice daunting him for having been the cowardice of the group. [i]Defeat[/i] was chewing his brain, like a worm inside of an apple, just munching away, chatting and munching.