[quote=celty sturluson]
i cant tell them i just can
[/quote]

 Shion, Your folks can do a hell of alot more than we can. Your chosing to not get help, your choosing to keep this up. I dont want to hear 'i need help' from you ever again until you try to get help, your parents are a great place to start, if not your therapist. Go. Get. Help.