Emilia wanted to pull away from Lanns touch. But having his arms around her, his skin on hers, she couldn't move away after all. And she didn't know whether she should feel guilty about it. She didn't know at all, what to feel anymore. He pulled her hands from her face. "I don't know myself.." he said gently as his thumbs carefully wiped her tears away. Not that it mattered much, because she coudln't seem to stop crying. In that regard, she was wondering about herself. SHe had never been one to cry easily or much. But then again, she had never been in any situation comparable to this one, before. "I can't believe it.. We're cousins.." she heard Lann say with a hint of disappointment in his voice. Emilia finally managed to look him in the eyes. Was he disappointed at her? She couldn't bear the thought.

"But.. I still love you too.. I love you, even though you're my cousin--" She gasped. She had not even hoped he would return ehr feelings anymore. It made her cry again. "We've given ourselves already to each other..." Emilia looked away at those words, blushing as she remembered. She didn't regret even now. Even now, it was her best memory yet. "I can't tell for yure.. But for some reason.. Going through with this relationship is the right choice. I don't want to see you as my cousin." She stared at him, wanted to tell him that that was impossible, that they [i]were[/i] cousins! But she couldn't bring herself to say anything. Because she felt the same way. 

And then he kissed her and she froze for several seconds, stopped crying even, her brain trying to sort out what was the right thing to do. Just that she didn't want to do the right thing for once. Didn't want to do what she was supposed to. Because that would mean leaving him. Probably never seeing him again. He pulled back and she stared at him, the unsureness plain in her eyes. "I want you.. As my girlfriend. As my one love." She sobbed loudly, and reached out, wrapping her arms around Lanns shoulders as she cried again, now from happiness. She hugged him tight to her, not ever wanting to let go. They wouldn't be able to tell anyone. And they would have to hisde what they were from all the others. But she didn't care about that, as long as it meant they could stay together. Shudders and sobs kept her from speaking clearly as she managed to find some words. "Me too.. I .. I love you so much, I.." she pulled back to look into his eyes. "You're the only one for me." she whispered and leaned in, kissing him sweetly at first, but growing more and more passionate as the kiss deepened.