*half smile* Thanks for being encouraging and understanding. Yesterday was just bad for me. I got an emotional double-whammy that left me feeling so drained that I couldn't even summon the energy to get off my bed to turn off the lights. 

I don't drink, mostly because I know I would like it way too much. What I think about when I think about alcohol is not being loosened up, it's drinking until I can't hurt anymore. *rubs the back of her neck* So I keep away.

Anyway, I do feel bad about not posting. I have a vague idea of where I want to go, but... my energy lately is just gone. I've been meaning to draw something, anything, for going on two weeks, but I can't even pick up a pencil without my mind going to static. *rubs face* Writing's a bit easier, but just barely. I don't know why I can't get anything done. I'm just going through a really hard time. 

Usually that doesn't bring me down so hard, but... it's several things at once that are going on, so I've just got to claw my way back to the light.