I may try that. Just... chill out tomorrow and do something different. There's a park near my house. I think taking a walk with some music may do me some good. I've got the house to myself tomorrow, so getting out of it is a plan.

I don't know if 'thank you' would be the right phrase, but... it does help that you get the alcohol thing. I just tell people I don't like the taste, when I'm out, or that I'm driving. While taste does have something to do with it, most of it is just me being afraid of... well, you know. I can't really call myself an alcoholic when I can count the amount of drinks I've had on two hands. But I know something about the pattern of thinking that goes behind the need for a drugged oblivion.

*fidgets, then hugs* It's nice to have someone to talk to about this kind of thing that actually gets it.