I am so, so, sorry, it is a little passed midnight here and I really should have waited until morning to reply to this but I can't fall asleep and I wanted to reply

First of all, I did edit to exclude Ash, that was just foolish on my part and I will edit for my blunder on the King of Raphael, and what I meant by decision is that she had contemplated suicide and she still is. Like I said, she has severe depression and other mental health issues. 

Second, sorry about the ellipses, my writing is her thinking and I think in speech patterns(so I will usually talk to myself while writing these posts out) so I have a lot of pauses in it. I always use ellipses to show that. I will work on that, though. Sorry if I annoyed you with that. 

Again, I am sorry, it's much to late for me to really be posting and I simply didn't double check. I will make the edits asap