[quote=souleaterfan320]
who? who wont live the same? anyone who cared about me has died and the only other person who cared doesnt want to see me again! i failed her, just like my father...
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I saw many people who cared for you. Though I will not say. And let me tell you one thing. You will always fail, and fail, and fail, and fail, but the biggest failure that you will truly regret and never be able to fix is....when you give up. She will calm, and she will forgive you. It will take time though, how long? I do not know. Just be patient and try not to make the same mistake again.