Elliot sighed, "Waking up after those nights is a nightmare for me... I wake up and remember everything I did.... those dreams are my one sanctuary.... along with you... You make things... better. You always have... I want to do that for you. I want you to wake me up because I want to hold you till you fall asleep..." she kissed him, "I love you. You are allowed to be weak around me.... it frightens me sometimes but I want to make sure you are okay and if you don't tell me...."

She felt tears in her eyes and started to silently curse herself. She needed to be strong for Jacob. Being strong did not include bursting into tears.