[center][indent]I'M SIX FEET FROM THE EDGE AND I'M THINKING. MAYBE SIX FEET, AIN'T SO FAR DOWN.[/indent][/center]

Hailey looking up at Joshua as he started to answer her question, almost getting hopeful that there was something that could be done for James. Their….their father could pay for tests and medicines easily! If not then Hailey would get a summer job to help pay and… Her thoughts were cut short by James saying Joshua’s name, and Hailey looked over at her brother confused as the whole room fell so quiet that if there weren’t machines beeping around them, then you could have heard a pen drop. 

Blake was confused by her question, and the fact that James cut Joshua off. If there was a way to help what was going on. Why not treat it? If there was time to make him better, why not do it? Blake might not have been quite the brainiac like Joshua, but it seemed like cutting him off and not doing what he suggested was stupid even to him. 

Hailey couldn’t help but frown at Ryan’s question, not just because it was strange, but because James would never keep secrets from them…from her. Other than the secrets of their friends, James told her everything, he always did She started to open her mouth to say something about Ryan’s careless, to even ask him something like that. To think he wouldn’t tell them. She didn’t see the look on his face, the look that would have more than made it clear. However, before she had a chance to cuss Ryan out, James said it had been about a month. A Month! How hadn’t she noticed? Or Ryan? Hell how could none of them notice!? 

Then there was loud beeping and time seemed to slow down to her as she went into pure shock mind trying to make sense of things. The words everyone was saying blurred and distorted, the nurse having to lay a hand on Hailey’s back to guide her out of the room, and into the waiting room. As Ryan’s arms went around her, everything sped up quickly, and she couldn’t help but feel like crumbling in the warm embrace of her friend as she returned the hug. However, she fought the urge knowing that she had to be strong, or at least until she wasn’t around her friends. 

Blake wasn’t quite sure what to feel at the moment, the doctor hadn’t come out yet, so he didn’t know what was going on. Should he hope that his friend would pull through or just start morning the loss? Feel angrily that James keep the truth from them, or understand the reason he didn’t tell? His face was a whole range of emotions that he couldn’t figure out which was right. Eyes going to look back at Joshua, clearly he wasn’t the only one still in shock. Blake shifted a little to compose himself as the doctor came into the waiting room.

Hailey didn’t even need the doctor to tell her, she already knew, or at least part of her did. The part that fell like a piece of herself was just ripped away, even around her friends she felt completely alone. This still don’t soften the blow of the truth, however, unable to act as strong as the others after the doctor left she sat in one of the waiting room chairs and started crying her eyes out. 

[center][indent]IF I TURN MY BACK I’M DEFENSELESS. AND TO GO BLINDLY SEEMS SENSELESS.[/indent][/center]