[B] Eternal Tears [/b] Seishu's eyes remain on the blankets as the bodies around him dart away to comfort his counterpart. He is unable to look up, that dark feeling inside him that he knows the other will never understand ripping at him in a way that even he has a hard time reconciling with it. Crios reaches out and, using what Kaila taught him, runs his hand across the slash stretching from his left shoulder blade to just under his right pectoral and makes sure it is sealed against infection. Seishu allows him this little gesture of healing, but no more. He will bare this punishment openly and with all the pain it entails. Though the burning will keep it from bleeding, neither acts of healing dulled the pain whatsoever. When Enasi takes up his hand and chastises him for “Harming himself” a flicker of anger runs across the Nightmare Guardian's consciousness. He tugs his hand a little harshly from his counterpart's grasp. “Don't start coddling me, Enasi. I will recover from my crimes in my own way.” His voice is a bare hiss and he can feel the little ones pull away from him at the sound. Harper, who had taken his place back against the wall, narrows his eyes at the sudden show of aggression. No one knows what to make of this. ~~~~ Enasi pulled his own hand backwards when Seishu pulled away. The sudden harshness was unexpected, but being the kind hearted guardian he was, he only assumed he was still hurting. From whatever he saw. And the guilt. "Calm down. . . You're going to scare them." He put his hands in his lap, decoding not to reach for his again. "Just calm down okay." His immediate reaction isn't hostility, and he continued his coddling. He didn't see anything wrong with it, and Seishu never minded before. ~~~~ A growl rumbles from his chest as Enasi does not heed his warning and continues to coddle him. Still full of the guilt over feeling as if he just tortured one of his own, the feeling of remorse over killing an innocent blends together and his rage begins building without check. He is in no danger of his energy leaking, however that does not still his normal venomous tongue. “Are you stupid or something? I told you to stop coddling me! And why are you even bothering to begin with? I fucking killed one of your precious sparklers, and here you are, trying to comfort me?!” Rue can tell that rational has completely fled the guardian at this point and he carefully pulls Rasha and Inui back. The look at him, confused, but he just takes them all the way to a wall to watch until Seishu can relax once more. Crios too pulls back, however Harper steps forward, ready to start knocking some sense into the slowly deteriorating Nightmare Guardian. - - - - Enasi ignored his growling and reached out to gently pat his leg. "Don't worry, we'll get you to the human realm soon-" He frowned a little at being called stupid. He sighed and tried to reason with him, but Seishu continued to yell. Normally, the guardian was the composed one. He knew how to keep himself and his emotions in check. But with all that had happened, he couldn't do that so easily. "Why do I bother?" His voice was low, but the frustration started to lace his tone. "Why do you think? I care, that's why! You're going crazy and I have to protect my minions from you!" He teared up again, not bothering to hide it. "Yes Seishu that's right, you killed her. There's nothing I can do about it! I'm not a miracle worker! Where did you think I went when I left you. My doctors were in tears knowing there was only so much they could do. She was already hurt because of the nightmare minions that attacked her before! She was hanging by a thread Seishu. . ." Enasi stared at him with a teary frown. "There was nothing I could do for her. Or them!" The feeling of being so helpless rested heavy in his chest. \ \ \ \ \ \ The madness can be seen flickering behind his eyes, however he refuses to acknowledge the feeling right now. At this moment, the pain is too much. “Oh, you care!? You care, and yet you don't even bother to make a barrier strong enough to keep the energy of this half dead murderer in check? That's rich.” Harper steps forward to object however he leaps back as a lash lands mere inches from his feet, Seishu head snapping around to glare at him, the look in his eyes not only mad, but warning the rabbit man off from interfering. His head snaps back around to glare at Enasi, his eyes almost throwing off sparks of blue white energy. “What about that, huh? I could have killed him right there, and yet again, you did nothing. By the Powers you're pathetic. I could slay everyone in this room before you even thought to defend them, and then you'd have even more tears to pat dry with that ever present molly coddling you wear on you sleeve lick a fucking medal!” Other than the sparks behind his eyes, his energy is in check, however Crios fingers a syringe he's kept hidden in his sleeve since first he treated Seishu. The drug would knock him out, no question, and keep him out for quite some time. Something about Seishu's tone however keeps him well back. He is not really afraid of Seishu at the moment, even after having struck out at Harper, however the note in his voice gives him the impression that he needs to get this out of his system, rather than suppressing it with drugs. - - - - Enasi didn't know what to say. His fists clenched and held his leg tight. But his own control was slipping. "I didn't think I'd have to because you were half dead. . . Days before you could barely move you know that? And this-" He glared back as he attacked Harper. "And this is what you do!?" As Seishu spoke about killing everyone it only upset him more. He knew he wouldn't, but the words still hurt. "Haven't you done enough damage already!? You've already slipped so many times and have hurt them! You think Crios can easily just tend to you!? Especially like this! You've scarred Rue, whether he liked it or not! And you've killed one of my minions! I know you may be a monster but you don't have to act like one!" By this time, Enasi was standing by the bed. His own energies sparked. "I thought maybe, just maybe you weren't so cruel, but of course you fooled me. To think I let you stay here! Your presence is literally tearing my realm down slowly, do you realize that! But I'm nice enough to actually let you stay here!" - - ! - - “Yeah, that's right Enasi, I'm a fucking monster. You knew this when you took me in, but you did it anyways. There was no hope, or even an inkling in that foolish mush heart of yous back then that I'm anything less than the demon you've always seen, but still, you just [b]had[/b] to [i]rescue[/i] me. Like I was poor wounded dog that had already bitten your leg off!” A part of him screams, way down deep inside, at the pain coming off of his counterpart. Unfortunately Seishu's own pain pulses far greater as once more the images of his minion being torn apart by what felt like his hands makes him sick to his stomach. “Do I notice!? Yeah, I notice! I'm ripping this realm apart, with barely an effort too. All gotta do is sit around like a lump, being fed and watered by the fucking himself, and the realm will rip itself apart! It's just as much your fault that this happened as it is mine. It was by your hands that you set about this chain of events! You're the one who didn't think before hitting me with enough positive energy to send me into shock, lashing out at the little sparkler. It's your inability to lead and command your minions successfully that lead to him sneaking into the human realm to earn his second one, and it's your fault for not keeping your minions safe from me when you know I'm an unpredictable asshole who's prone to fits of rage! You are so fucking stupid! Why don't you show some balls, and just kill me so there's no chance of me harming one of your precious little ones again!? Maybe the next set of guardians will have a Dream Guardian with a brain this time!” Rue can not hold back the silent tears that began flowing from his eyes as Seishu tears into Enasi. Harper, though wanting desperately to, can not find the strength to step forward again to defend his lord. Even when Seishu proposes the idea of Enasi killing him, in essence, both of them, no one in the room feels they have the right to interfere. Seishu, or at least a small part of him, knows he's just trying to end the pain. To forever block out those images of his tortured underling. To somehow wipe the blood from his hands, though he was not the one who put it there. - - ! - - "You know what! You're right!" His own inner anger spilling out. "I was an idiot for ever trusting you! For thinking you could ever compromise! And for ever even [b] thinking[/b] about having feelings for you! You're an ass and I'm glad you know that! I may have made mistakes, but at least my minions aren't trying to [u] kill [/u] me!" This time he did growl out. The deep seated anger finally settled but his own energy settled. The minions pulled back even more, never seeing their guardian in such fury. "You know why I won't kill you? Because I'm not a ruthless murder like you are! And I'm not suicidal! I care about my realm to know that these stupid clashes aren't worth losing my minions. But you know why I put up with you? Because of that stupid balance! You die, I die. That's how it works. You get your dumb realm together and you can prance yourself right out of my life. You won't ever have to deal with me or my 'weak' willed way again. You won't have to deal with how I rule my realm, or having to put up with this overly bright sweet world. Once you step into the Nightmare Realm, be my guest and stay there!" !!!!!!!!! Seishu listens quietly, the only noises coming out him the hiss of his harsh breathing. His madness grows deeper and deeper at the pain his counterpart's words cause, and that pain digs in so deep that he can feel his very soul beginning to shatter. He sits, unmoving, as before his very eyes, he sees Enasi transform in him. The fury, the venom, even the animalistic growl that tears it's way from his chest. Seishu's bared teeth slowly vanish as his snarl relaxes into a pained grimace. They all can see the slow collapse of the male on the bed, but it's Crios he acts on it. In the back of his mind he recalls how Seishu has always fought to hide his pain and weaknesses from all but his counterpart, even crying into his shoulder so that no one could see. Without a sound, and without removing his eyes from the fractured guardian, he moves around the room and gently herds everyone towards the door. Both Harper and Rasha try to object but a snap of his jaws and a flare of his flames sends them bout out into the hall in front of the doctor. As he closes the door behind him they all look at him confused, however he says not a word and takes up a vigil in front of the door. Back inside the room Seishu vaguely notices the others leaving, his eyes still on Enasi. However after the door closes his breathing becomes erratic. With a blood curdling scream his hand snap up to his face. His palms cover his eyes as his nails dig into his forehead, desperately trying to tear away the images flashing across his mind. He falls back on to the bed, once more letting out a harsh scream, trying desperately to make the pain stop. His fingers trail up into his hair, streaking it with red as the blood drips freely from the gouges in his forehead. He wants them out, he wants them gone. The pain, the suffering, the evil. . . Curling on his side his cries do not stop as all of his agony melds together, threatening to tear him pieces if he can not find even a moment's peace. His screams become words, nearly unintelligible through the pain. “Get out! Leave her alone! Stop, stop hurting her! Stop hurting everyone! Stop making me do this!!!!” The blood mixes with tears as he rolls violently back and forth on the mattress. - - - - - Enasi's fist clenched and unclenched. He was thankful the doctor moved everyone out. But he didn't show it obviously. He was slowly bursting inside. He felt like screaming and tearing his own hair out. He growled and paced, not knowing what to do with himself. At this point, Enasi could surely be a walking time bomb. His energy sparked and threatened to lash out but was forcefully confined. He held his head in his hands, shaking it vigorously. Everything was spiraling out of control. His morals, their plan, and it was physically hurting him as the core of his realm took the lashing. Somewhere in the lashing he fell to his knees. Only listening to Seishu's screams. "You wanted me to stop coddling you so fine-" It pained him so much to say, but he growled lowly. "Deal with it..." The anger in him was too much for his own positive energy. He tried stopping himself, but his blind rage wouldn't stop. Enasi held his stomach and stood again. He leaned against the wall next to the door feeling rather sick all of a sudden. He needed to leave. He needed to stay away from Seishu. Just like everything used to be. Everything needed to go back to the way it used to be. - - - - He can feel it. Enasi, moving away from him. He can't let that happen. The pain, is too much. Inside him, something shatters, leaving him laying immobile on his back. The screams stop, everything vanishes. He feels. . . Nothing. Then, as soft as a baby's sigh, he whispers, “Don't leave me. . .” *sniffs* *sniffles* Enasi slid to the floor. He paled as his energy diminished slowly. Only so little of the nightmare energy should taint him, there was a natural order for him to have a deeply buried negative energy, but it grew too much. He focused his breathing to level it out, only to hear Seishu's soft voice. He looked up, his eyes immediately softening into tears once more. "Y-You idiot. . . I'm stuck with you." He wiped his eyes, but stayed on the floor, away from the bed.