Argh, so tired... sorry about some of the awkward phrasing there. I need to sleep... but I also really want to see what happens.

Sorry to be so... picky. I'm trying to pad the decision to help justify the total change from "I'LL DIE FIRST" to voluntarily doing it, so that he doesn't look so fickle or hypocritical. Hopefully I'm explaining it well enough.
I worry too much. lol. :-)