[i]~Seishu breath slowly, his whines quieting down.

[b]I can do this.

I just need to relax.[/b]

However his relaxation exercise is interrupted as he hears the worried question chimed out from the side by the ever on edge counterpart. 

[b]Jeez, now I gotta. . .[/b]

“I'm fine, Enasi. . .” He murmurs softly, looking over to the flustered male with a warm albeit still hungry smile. “I just. . .I just need a moment.” He lets out a long sigh, sliding across the pillow until he can reach Enasi. Playfully he rolls around the other, tickling and teasing until at last he settled beneath Enasi, the other's back to his front so they can both see the stars. With a soft hum he brings out his wings, cocooning their lower bodies leaving only their heads and feet exposed. The warm smooth skin of his wings hover several inches about the top male, leaving him free to shift and move until he's comfortable.

His arms come out to wrap around Enasi's middle and he can feel his body calming. Even in the close proximity, being unable to see most of Enasi keeps his passions from rising any higher than they already are. 

[b]I want you so much Enasi, my love. . .

I want every part of you, down to the last hair.

But I will not take you.

I refuse to take you.

Not when I know I must leave one day.[/b]

His mind wanders to the youngsters who will most likely continue their relationship even after all is well with the world. He envisions Rasha and Kaila discovering the pleasures in one another as they bond over their love for him.

[b]Everyone can love but we.

It is only the two of us that can not indulge.

It is our sad fate to be ever alone. . .[/b]

Seeing no real reason not to at least abbreviate the reasons for his actions to the man he loves, Seishu purrs deepen as he speaks. “My wanting to have my way with you simply became too intense. I needed a moment to gather myself.” He kisses Enasi's collar bone gently, licking the flesh playfully once. “At the end of all this, I. . .I don't think our relationship will be allowed to continue, and I swore not to let my passions run away from me. I could not bond with you like that and then leave. I am not cruel after all. . . .” He purrs softly, holding Enasi a little tighter before relaxing, not wanting the other male to feel trapped.~[/i]