I hate her. I absoloutely hate roleplaying her at the moment. I love this rp but posting as her makes me frustrated, miserable and tempted to just quit. She hasnt been fun to play for a while and ive tried various things to inject some fun back into her (including the rilon stuff) all of which has been stopped or shut down before its had a chance to go anywhere. Making her as a character feel desperate, useless and pointless and breaking her all the more. So i just find myself more depressed whenever I have to post as her.