“I suppose that is true. You can’t really expect friends to go and fall out of the sky in front of you and then venture off in glorious friendship with one another. If it were that easier than well I think a lot of people would be a lot more happy then they are right now.” He explained out loud even though he was more or less thinking about what she had said in his head exploring the sentence as if it was puzzle. The one piece that did not fit though was her comment asking about himself. How was he fairing in the friend department? To be put in the gentlest way possible about as good as a racoon on the highway about to meet his best friend a car wheel. He once had friends but now? Well he had Toke but he wasn't so sure if he could count his dealer as a friend. But he was the only one around Yamaku that Ueda could be completely open with. So one friend.... that wasn't that bad right? A little bit brought down from his own revelations he decided the best course of action in the puzzle that was human interaction was the truth, that usually worked. “I know it might come to a shock for you to believe that such a likable dashing talented person such as myself would have no real friends but that would be closer to the reality. A lot of people know me and I know a lot about most people but in the end I guess I would call them associates more than anything else. For I’m perfectly content wasting away without much human interaction but people one way or another stumble upon me, or maybe they are directed by a friend to come find the strange upperclassman with the cane.” He explained with a shrug. “For apparently as the little boy with the PDA in your grade.... what was his name? Ah yes Fuyuki to go find information. They find me because for one reason or another I’m able to calm the woes of their hearts. So they appreciate me. But freinds? Not really there had to be some give and take there with emotional involvement and well that just doesn't happen. Oh well such is the life of the dying hermit.”

Ueda finished his little story and to his surprise he still did not feel anything it was probably the most he had ever talk to anyone beside Toke about himself in one go and yet he was still as hollow and ambivalent towards the girl as he was everyone else. What caught his attention though was his hand shaking it was a gently tremor but it was a signal as he looked down at it and doing some calculations in his head he figured it was about that time again and so he reached into his coat. Ueda beside his more dangerous drug habits of things a bit more deadly in the short term had a bit of a smoking problem he started back the year or so before he came to Yamaku or was it later? Though in the long run it really did not matter what did matter was that it eased the constant trembling and pain that was accompanied with the slow degenerative process of his body and it helped keep his mind cleared. He knew perfectly well that might just be an excuse of an addict but when you only have a good ten years left you were less worried about the long term side effects of smoking a pack or two. Cursing his trembling hands underneath his breath he took a smoke out from the pack and put it in his mouth and then brought out his lighter from another pocket. Striking once and failing, twice and failing, three times and failing curing his hands as they continued to shake as the broken and degenerative nerve endings were still losing life. Finally though it lit up and soon smoke filled his lungs and he let out a mental sigh of relief as the trembling was dulled by the nicotine if only for a little while. He then realized though that he still had company and he looked at the blind girl in front of him. “I’m being rude again aren't I? You want one?” He asked her with a raised eyebrow. “Though no offense princess but slowly destroying your lungs through a habit that is basically a violation of common sense doesn't really seem like your thing.” His eyes flicked towards the window making sure it was still open. He didn't want the fire alarm to go off or anything. For that would just be problematic at the least.