Suki had no deserve to become a leader. No deserve to be in charge and have to worry about everyone constantly, even though she would never stop worrying about her friends, as well as anyone else they came across. Too many people had already died in this game, that it was impossible for her to not not care about people, at least for her. She squirmed, believing it was a hard decision, and one she didn't know if she could make right then. 

She looked down at the table, marveling at how, despite the fact it was game-made, it still had the intricate patterns of hand carved wood, and she just stared at it for a few moments, As she tried to arrange her thoughts. She sighed deeply, "if I didn't want to be with you, I would have fled once we were safe" she said to Umichi, without looking up. She bit her lip, trying to figure out what she wanted to say.

"Look, my whole life I've done what others wanted me too, for the simple fact it was easier then fighting seven males for the ability to just climb a tree-although I did that a lot still. I...schools small, being a farming community, and I didn't really fit in. I was the only Gamer-girl. The only girls were kind of cliche, so I kept to myself. No one followed me, and I had no desire to become a leader, nor do I. Here...." She sighed again and shrugged, looking up. 

"This world...people are getting hurt, and as far as we know, they're dying. I don't want that. People have to stand up and say "we can do this. We will get out" and if it has to be me, then so be it. I'll do it, because I want to get out of here. I need to believe we will, because..." She looked down, bit her lip and felt herself blush slightly, glad for her long hair which could cover her face "because I want to be able to meet you guys in real life. To laugh, and talk, and just be together in real life. You know, without the threat of death. So far we have survived. And we will continue to do so" she looked up, meeting the eyes of all those that were present "because we have each other. So" she rose, and shrugged, "I'll try, but I don't know how good I'll be"