Hey, guys I have noticed that my roleplays keep dying just as things get good or before I even get to start them. I have also noticed that when I have an idea I put forth..It gets ignored very easily. Yes, Im not the best roleplayer here but I do try. When It comes to roleplays, I put effort into them and leave room for the people I roleplay with to add opinions. My ideas are usually a mix of action, adventure and comedy. There is room for romance in my roleplay ideas as well but I dont like to focus on only one thing. Usually when I post a plot I will add that I dont want players that show up one minute then leave just as fast never to return. 

Every roleplay I have ever been a part of I have noticed that I am the one that hangs around that thread after it dies....I feel like a ghost looming over a dead roleplay which is really sad. I always do my best to make good posts that are the length requirements and I dont make mary sue characters. I am not the best speller so I find myself using a Dictionary. Because I want to get better and grow as a roleplayer I am always reading online trying to find better ways to use words. I try to make my plots simple yet intersting and I add pictures to show what I am trying to explain if I cannot find the right words. I post up simple rules when I am a GM and I try not to pester people into posting. I get players that act like they are going to post and they show enthusiasm over the roleplay but they dont post and I am left with a dead topic every time. 

Lately, I had found someone to roleplay with and they were better at roleplay then I am. I was super pumped and found my characters faces. I let the girl know that I had to send my computer in to get fixed but I wanted to plan the roleplay during that time I have to wait. I am using my family computer right now and have been for a month. Also, since she is more creative with her borederd for her posts then I am, I asked if she wanted me to do the same. I had never tried that but I was willing to try it. Before she agreed to roleplay with me I had given her a sample of my roleplay....Now its been a week and she gets online then gets off without even messaging me back. I did not spam her inbox...today I sent her one last message letting her know that I had found the characters I would use and that I was guessing she was busy. She got online after I sent the messege and still nothing. 
Yes this is a rant that might or might not get attention and I am aware of that. If its possible for ideas to be spilled out I will take them. I am just so angry and feel like I ruin my roleplays or I chase people away. Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh WHATS WRONG WITH ME???? [Besides my grammer and spelling]