The thing is, though, that I would rather not mess things up (again) trying to learn by doing. 

I mean... This was both my first nation and hardcore RP when I first got told I should join on the MCF. And since then, I've been trying to learn by doing, and look what happened to the canon as a result. At first with the nation swapping, it was just kind of a habit from the RP's I was in pre-POW. If you wanted to play a different kind of character, you either killed off or NPC'd your old one, and started fresh. So going into POW, I still had that mindset. Really, coming into POW, I just didn't really know what to expect. And by the time I finally figured out how to do things, I had gone through too many nations to really be trusted.By both myself and others, I think. 

So I just feel like I need to be overly cautious now, because I'm playing a country who's lore I don't even completely understand, and don't want to cross any boundaries, becoming even more of a nuisance to the RP's lore than I already have been, due to the bambi nature I had when I first joined. So that's why I feel like I should leave the RP. Because I feel that, because of my early background in it, I'm not really trying to write for fun anymore, and instead trying to write to keep others from thinking "Feo's pulling a Feo again."