It wasn't fair. It wasn't fair to him, Irenia, or Lorelai and he felt like a monster for causing such harm as he had. He wouldn't hear anything of her trying to stop him. "Don't fight me on this. For once I need to you to follow what I say. You are a queen and Steffan is your husband you know how he is. He is a good man but If he finds out you were willing he will either torture you or kill you simply to comply to his honor and traditions and even if he didn't your reputation would be ruined." He wiped the forming tears from her eyes gently with his thumb but couldn't stop his own from forming. "I'm not afraid of facing my death, but I'm terrified of you facing yours. Promise me Irenia. Promise me you'll do as I say." It was the first time he had ever called her by her name and he hoped it would show her how serious he was. For all he knew he was living on borrowed time and he would use it to try an make things right.