“You sure are in a hurry, aren’t you?” Clyde smiled and laughed. He shrugged though and would speak once more. [b]“Rumor around Balfonheim is that Hashmaal is sealed within the Pharos of Ridorana.”[/b] Clyde revealed. [b]“The Pharos huh? “[/b] Wesley asked as he thought aloud. [b]“Then I guess we’re going to have to find some way to get there, either by boat or something.” [/b]Wesley said. Clyde smiled. [b]“Fortunately for you, I can help you.”[/b] He chuckled. [b] “What do you mean?” “Oh come on Wesley. You didn’t think that my information was going to be totally free, now did you?” “Don’t tell me…” “That’s right. I’m coming with you three.” [/b] And there it was. Wesley couldn’t say that he was entirely thrilled about the idea. He knew that his Uncle was a bit of a handful and even more so on adventures. However, Wesley was really worried about Nadeline. Already he has made a bad impression on her and prolonged exposure to him may cause harm to Nadeline’s rationality. Wesley was now foresaw yelling with a chance physical harm. [b]“Gods help us all.”[/b] ----- Jaakuna noticed the second of the lights began to glow. This one would glow a rich orange color. Jaakuna would smile as it hinted at the fact that he was progressing smoothly. Though, he would have little time to enjoy that he had already conquered two steps as Aloa began to explain the third step. She would do so by explaining that now Jaakuna must overcome his fear, as in doing so, Jaakuna would have to confront those things that were placed in his heart that caused him to back away. She would state that he must regain that confidence and determination that he had once before. Overcoming hesitation and solitude was easier for Jaakuna. He knew where he stood on both and he knew that both weren’t going to be good for him. Fear, however, was something of a whole different magnitude. It wasn’t even in the same neighborhood that hesitation and solitude were in. Even as he sat there thinking about it, Jaakuna just didn’t know where he would begin to evaluate exactly what he was afraid of. No, that wasn’t correct. He knew what he was afraid of. It was confronting that fear that had him at a stalemate. [b]“Fear..”[/b] Jaakuna murmured. He stared blankly above him as he leaned slightly back, arms firmly against the ground, supporting his up-right position. For some reason, the hollowed walls of the tree that they were all in gave Jaakuna peace. Gazing up into it gave him the chance to think about it all. He closed his eyes as he would drift off into a relaxed state. he aspect of fear took his thoughts to a different direction. He found himself remembering his nightmare. It always was synced into his mind and always he would remember it. That was the first time that he actually felt real fear and helplessness. It was, after all, his best hopes came crashing down into oblivion where his worst fears came to life. It was indeed something he never wanted to see. His family and friends dead and the love of his life gone from him. And then that’s where Jaakuna never came back. Before that, he was brimming with all the determination and confidence in the world, but as soon a she let Zodiark into his heart, he lost himself. It wasn’t all at once, but Jaakuna did and just remembering it made him realize how far he had fallen. [b]“The fear I felt then just grew..”[/b] Jaakuna said, as he still remembered seeing his entire family and all of his friends dead, his love gone from him, and Zodiark in him. [b]“It grew into despair and I lost myself. I didn’t think it would happen, but it did. I didn’t trust myself. I feared that I would harm those I loved.”[/b] Jaakuna said still eyes closed Still looking up, and eyes closed, Jaakuna would roll back the memories in his mind, stopping at the exact moment he was confident in himself. The exact memory that Jaakuna was remembering was when he broke back into Archades before he and his friends were cleared of al charges. He was remembering the time that he led Wesley and Nadeline through the Sochen Cave Palace and to Archades and his mission to free Emiri from Vincent’s grasp. This memory was him remembering the determination he felt leading a rescue mission, and in his heart, the confidence he had to successfully pull off such a risky mission. As he opened his eyes, Jaakuna smiled. It came to him. It was the moments of knowing his fears, but not letting them control him that led Jaakuna to the answer. [b]“I don’t think fear is something that holds us back. No, that’s entirely wrong.”[/b] Jaakuna said looking at Aloa. [b]“Fear tells us where the weakness lies and fear tells us what we need to work on. “[/b] He said, [b]“I know now that fear will always exist as long as there is hope, determination, and confidence, but it’s what a person can do to prevent the fears from taking over. I did and it led me to dark corners of my soul.”[/b] Jaakuna said, remembering that fear is good as a motivator to improve. [b]“I realize that fear is good as long as I remember that too much of it will ruin my soul.”[/b] Jaakuna finished.