Despite herself, she was laughing again at the display Ostus made in an attempt to show her that her idea was ridiculous. Another barb, but she would take it this once, because it was very entertaining to see him embarrass himself again. It was almost as if he did not mind such spectacles, but she could not understand why. Maybe because he did not grow up surrounded by people who were constantly judging his every move. Maybe if she had grown up in the same environment as him... she would feel the same way?

It wasn't really worth brooding over and instead she was content to watch as he settled in and relaxed with his food and his ale and the people around him. For a moment, she smiled sadly as she had found herself doing often lately. Watching him belong so easily... she wished it was the same for her. In order to be accepted by these people, she had to pretend to be someone else. Deep down, she felt as if they knew she was not who she said she was, and that made her feel all the worse for the lies.

And for once, Kiara wanted to tell someone how she felt. About it all. But when she looked at Ostus, she was sure he would just think she was lying. Still, tonight she was tripping over her feet and dancing and laughing, it was possibly time to just let it out and see what happened. Her nerves made her stomach swirl and so she skipped both the ale and the food before seating herself closely to him.

"Have you eve wanted to be someone else?" she asked quietly, hoping he would not judge her or admonish her as he had been doing every time she had something about her life. "Sometimes I see how happy these people are, and I just wish..." Kiara bit her lip softly, looking towards the fire as she continued to speak. "I know you think that my life is wonderful and that I should be grateful.. but I just..."

She sighed and motioned towards one of the couples dancing together. This one was laughing, talking in whispers to each other and so obviously in love that she could feel it from across the camp. "Have you never once wanted something you could never have, even if everyone tells you should just... be happy with what you have? Even when you know people would do anything to have your life?"