Oh :c I get that way sometimes too, so I know how you feel. I'm sure you have a full life ahead of you filled with all kinds of wonderful things <3 Take a deep breath, it's going to be okay <3 I went through something similar when I turned 21 where I thought I was old and going to die with nothing to show for my life. You just have to keep moving forward and be happy with what you're doing, even if it's something small.