I think you should consider seeing someone if you've already started to look into it. What's stopping you? I know it can be hard letting people in to help, but you shouldn't have to deal with fears like that all the time and it's really not healthy.

I think it turned out pretty well! It's set nicely and it smells amazing in my house right now, so I'm pretty pleased. And then tomorrow I'll just make the whipped cream and be on my way c: Also, I think I'm almost done with this post.