Hi, my name is Rose and I'm an alcoholic. *Hiiii Rose.*

In all seriousness, several of you people may recognize me from my nonsense around here and old guild (I joined in 2011) and yeah, I left after Guildfall (I like that term for it btw). Why did I leave? Lots of reasons. I like the new format, I had every intention of coming back, but then the updates stopped. I thought I was going to see a site be built from the ground up and see it evolve and be amazing, you know? I laughed at the unicorns, saw the childlike wonder everyone looked around and made judgements on the new style, I saw the demand for the :gray: to be brought back. I enjoyed the feeling of being able to start with a blank slate and make it what we wanted. 

But it died. The roleplays I was in died. I couldn't find (and still can't) find some of the people I roleplayed with on the old guild, and I don't really have a way to find them again. It sucks. Maybe I would have stayed had I had one or more of the three. It's disappointing. There was also life things and school things and debate things that came up for me, I became more social, I got a job, and I had a life now. We all get lives.

I didn't go running to Iwaku (I think I have an account there, but that was for other purposes), because I have my own site that I maintain, and yes, it has its flaws too. All sites do. Nothing's perfect. But there are active admins. Shit, there's like five of them and they're active. We have a tech admin who runs the server and stuff but he's pretty transparent about things. Other admins can make changes to the site if we can't get to him. I respect the mods here, they're pretty rad (Holmes and Sophi <3), but they can only do so much. I respect Mahz' decision to be the only coder, because that's a big trust thing he can't just hand off to some stranger on the Internet, and it's hard to find people with a) interest and b) experience in the real world (I got lucky when booting my site with a close friend). Even Contra (who I never saw here to begin with... She's busy with photography stuff I think though). But there comes a point where you have to swallow your pride and ask for help. Especially when you have many angry (to continue the analogy) customers. Not even the President of the United States runs the whole thing by himself. Not even Kim Jong Un runs the whole thing by himself.

I respect you have a life, Mahz. But when you have people willing to step up and help, whether it be with paying or with coding help, at some point you need to realize you are not Atlas and can't support everything. You're one guy, a swell one at that. You don't deserve the stress and stuff this kind of thing brings.