Major, you're really killing yourself on this one. I don't know the exact situation because I lack the perspective and the attendance to the thread in question, but I think you're putting too much emphasis on the others. If you feel that this is something8 your life that's causing you pain, then leave. It isn't their choice, it's yours. Taking a roleplay seriously is not a crime, but staying when you feel like this is only hurting you. Nobody wins on that road. Believe me, there are a million roleplays out there and any one of then could be as good, make you feel better, include you more, and give you the fulfillment that every writer and roleplayer is looking for. You just gotta find it. :)