Upon waiting to hear what he did wrong, he had a moment of deja vu as he remembered that this was not the first time Seishu planned to 'set him straight'. And with that thought, as Seishu began, he brought his hands to his face in an exasperated manner before returning them back to the pillow. [I]'Man I'm such a fool. . . And somehow I still manage to mess things up- well, apparently that's nothing new. . .'[/i] He nearly missed a whole chunk of what Seishu had been talking about before he realized he was drifting off into his own mind. "I know it's not some attack." He mumbled and decided not to protest the pouting thing considering he was pouting like a child. This also caused him to fix his face and pout less.

The guardian returned the light kiss before sighing softly. "You've told me that several times before- and yet here we are again." Enasi gave a small empty smile and shrug before looking back down. The only reason he looked back up was because his counterpart began to caress his cheek. "Well, I mean it was a necessity at first because, you know, I couldn't have you dying or anything. . .But after, I let Rue go because he seemed to like you and he wasn't going to listen. And then, you got attacked- well, almost. Precautionary measures- then, yeah, I was being nice. It's something that's pretty normal for me you know. Kindness and all." As he explained, he moved his hands from the pillow and messed with strands of Seishu's hair before tucking them behind his ear. 

He fell silent again, trying to think of what to say- or at least how he was feeling. However he wasn't sure about either of those things at the moment, which was starting to become more often than not. But the more Seishu spoke, the more Enasi came to realize why he was feeling so jumbled and so. . . Not right. It was besides the fact that he burdened himself with all the problems of his world- or at least used to seeing as he was now learning to 'share his problems'. When Seishu brought up his questions, with obvious sadness in his voice, Enasi once again brought his hands to his face and heaved a sigh. "No, no, no. You're fine. We're fine. I mean- I hope we're fine. We are fine, right? . ." There was a moment's pause as Enasi deterred his mind from wandering off. 

"Ever since you've gotten here- no, ever since I was a guardian I've been. . . I don't know, I guess so worried and fearful about messing everything up that I've been doing just that. . ." Enasi stared at the ceiling before closing his eyes. "When I was given guardianship and going through how things were supposed to work and how things worked before I was a guardian, everything seemed. . .well perfect. It's not as easy as it looks keeping every single creature 'positive'. Positive happy, positive content, positive calm and all that follows in that. . . And the last guardian, the first guardian was apparently pro-war. Hence why we're here. I didn't want that to happen a second time. So I carefully made a system. A system that worked and was agreeable for all. Was. Or maybe if never really worked and I was just too full of high hopes." Enasi paused again and frowned a little before putting the pillow that was over his wound, over his face. 

He wasn't sure the idea of sharing had been a good or bad thing anymore. Muffled through the pillow, Enasi spoke. "I have no idea what else to say about it. . . No nothing is wrong with you. The problem is me and I'm not doing such a good job. Sorry for screwing so much stuff up. . . I'll fix it. . .eventually." The sound of his voice got softer and sadder, though tears never actually formed. 

~*~*~*~

Outside the door, Rue watched Harper's expression go from attentive to softening. His ears lowered a little and he crossed his arms. As curious as Rue was, he decided to stay quiet and wait for the right time to speak about it. In the meantime, he and Inui played with and petted Rasha while they waited. 

~*~*~*~

Finn was resting on his stomach in the garden, watching a few closed flowers. "Now don't be like that. It's blooming time for you all. I need you to do just that. . . Please?" He slumped into the dirt and sighed. Rolling on his back, Finn stared at the sky trying to figure out what the problem could be. He had also been waiting for Starla. Hopefully she had some piece of the puzzle.