If only he could I derstamd that she wanted to know what she was fully capable off to be able to protect him as he protected her. She didn't care about power. She just wanted to be able to protect him.

if that made her a bad person, a horrible girlfriend, then so be it. 

"I just want to be able to protect you, rather than hiding like I always end up doing in simulations" she said softly, stepping back. She brushed a few tears away, "I love you. But you probably hate me now" she looked away, "you nave a parent 0, who your whole life was there to help you. I didn't I need this" 

She didnt look up, she turnedaway